Friday, November 03, 2006

For Such A Time As This...

Can I just say that I LOVE Taylor University? Seriously, it is amazing. I have grown more in the 2 months I have spent here then I have in a long time. A lot of it is just the element of being on my own, and the growth that come from that, but a lot of it is the overall atmosphere here. Everyone is so in love with God. It's awesome. I don't think I've ever had more heartfelt conversations on where I stand with the Lord and what I've been learning then I have here. I'll admit, I've had my share of doubts about it all. Sometimes I wonder what in the world I am doing here in an unfamiliar place, away from my friends and family. For awhile I felt like the disciples in Mark 8, when they are on the boat and there is a huge storm. During the storm, Jesus is at the bottom of the boat sleeping. So the disciples start freaking out, worrying about the storm and wondering why in the world Jesus is just sleeping at the bottom. They feel like He doesn't care about them. I can totally relate to how they are feeling in this story. I got on the boat with God, and followed Him here. But sometimes it seems like He is sleeping in the bottom of the boat. He is uninvolved in my life. I cry out to Him and ask Him why He isn't changing my circumstances and wonder where His presence is. And just as He told the disciples on the boat, He says to me, "You of little faith, why do you doubt?" And then He calmed the storm. What a slap in the face!! Here I am worrying, and wondering where He is...but He is fully aware of everything in my life and has complete control. I just have to trust Him. So that has been my theme passage this first semester here at Taylor. Not only is He on the boat, but He is fully aware, and He will handle things in His time. That is the hardest part for me. Waiting on His timing. But it's something I'm working on, and am striving to change. I was talking to my friend Mark last night about some of this, and he showed me a great verse. Isaiah 49:16 "I will not forget you! See I have engraved you on the palms of My hands." That verse has become so real to me. God knows my needs and desires, and He will provide for me.
I have so many strong friendships and we are able to discuss personal issues we are dealing with. God knew that He was going to bring all of us together, "for such a time as this."